Moses’ father-in-law replied, “What you are doing is not good. You and these people who come to you will only wear yourselves out. The work is too heavy for you; you cannot handle it alone. Listen now to me and I will give you some advice, and may God be with you. Exodus 18:17-19
Jethro was Moses’ father-in-law who had an opportunity to observe the work Moses did from morning until evening. When Jethro saw the load Moses carried, He said to him, “What is this you are doing?”
Moses explained that the people wanted to seek God’s will. Their disputes were brought before him, and he would give them God’s instructions.
Jethro disagreed with this strategy and in today’s reading warned Moses that he would become worn out with the burden, for he was trying to carry everything on his shoulders.
Sometimes, we do that.
In the desert, the children of Israel had been going through a process of learning to leave the ‘burdens’ of all else in order to want God more. They had been tested for days without food and water so that they would hunger and thirst for Him.
Nothing on this earth holds more importance than our desire for the Lord. Even our thought life can become a hindrance (too heavy for us to carry) or a blessing towards our goal to know Him better.
Last week, my blog was about the Israelites accusing God of starving them. I made the point that perhaps desiring Him more starts when things are stripped from our lives. It’s as if God is removing the heaviness of the props we think are holding us up, all the things that make us temporarily happy. He’s also removing the burdens of bad habits, rough edges and any distrust we have of Him. He’s removing our exhausting prison bars of staying stuck in one place and our infantile responses to hardships. We begin to lose the need to cling to something visible and gain faith in this beautiful Father of ours…who carries us.
Israel had said that God was starving them to death. If that was so, for what reason? Was it perhaps a death to all this earth had for them…in order for God to bless, sanctify, grow, release and free them. He wanted them to soar, to have joy and peace and to bless others on the journey.
Now, here is my focus for today: our home on this short stay on earth presents us with needs and wants (needs are a must, wants are not). We can do without needs for a few days, but not much longer. Wants make our souls ache while we wait on them, fight for them, pursue them, but we can live without them.
So, I got to thinking, Jethro told Moses, “This work is too heavy for you. You will wear yourself out. You cannot handle it alone.”
All of this advice applies to my wants. They are too heavy for me to carry. I will continue to ask for and pursue them because they are nice to have. But when the wants are refused or not provided for me, what then? Do I cling to them as if I am entitled? How much time do I spend defending my wants?
Holding up my wants is exhausting.
Jethro gave Moses the advice to delegate his work to faithful men. I’ve decided to delegate my unmet wants to God.
I close my eyes and picture myself in a true desert, hot and dry. I ask, what wants are met in this arid place? Probably not very many. What do I feel, taste, see, smell and hear while I’m in my desert? The one thing I know is that I am free to be with God, alone, with no distractions. I am His and He is mine.
I open my eyes and remember all the ‘wants’ I get to keep! in my life, because, after all, I’m not really in the desert. I have the comfort of my home, the delicious food and water and the cool breeze outside. And I am thankful for such bounty. Even any ‘lack’ no longer feels burdensome.
Sometimes, I feel like I hold the world on my shoulders, trying to run the whole thing. But Jesus says to come away with Him and rest. It’s good to let some of these things go and then focus on the work I can do. It’s good not to let my wants dictate to me how I spend my day with God.
I may ask Him for this or that. Then, as I let these go, I relax my heart and enjoy myself. I get creative with what I don’t have and find a way to peace.
“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing…He makes me to lie down, he leads me, he refreshes my soul, He guides me…” Psalm 23:1
I mentally run to my desert to be with God, and I begin to wonder if there is wisdom in running towards my lack (of unmet wants). What if I allowed my wants to gradually decrease on purpose in order to have the energy and time it takes to address the reality of my lacks. What if my lacks are the point of my life, and I must come to terms with them as if they were my desert (the place I meet my beautiful God), a place of benefit and treasures.
Here’s an example: I WANT to have quiet time during the day to do my work. It comforts me and reinvigorates my soul. But I have all sorts of “interruptions.” Sometimes, these delays to my wants, these ‘lacks,’ irritate and bother me. I want what I want when I want it!
However, “stop a minute,” I say to myself, “run towards the interruptions and see them as my chance to be with God.” So I do (not always, but more and more). And I’m finding such treasure. When that need is fulfilled, the Lord (not always, but sometimes) opens up all sorts of opportunities to get my work done in the quiet that I had wanted in the first place. It’s amazing!!
Father, in my spiritual desert, there is more than meets the eye, for in the end what stands before me is your clear, blue ocean waiting just for me and there is always treasures to find here and now. Help me to run to the Shepherd in whom I feel no want or lack. Thank you for the beautiful gifts you give even though they are not what I thought I wanted… until now. I worship you in this desert. In Jesus name, Amen.